Despite the distance apart, it keeps leaving me needing you.

And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere, all of a sudden this overwhelming sadness rushes over me and i get discouraged and I get upset and I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt and once again I become numb to the world.

why do I feel that everything I say and do make you upset? Im not here to pull you down, but lift you up. I wish to be the reason for you to smile just like you being the reason for my smiles. But it all seemed different now. The distance between is indescribable, and I dont wish to talk about it anymore. Because I know deeply in my heart, nothing more can be done to pull us closer. The only way is for a time machine to bring us back to the past. I really wish, what Ive been feeling, seeing and hearing all this while wasnt true. Its now my turn to let you know, I cant live without you.

Finally a day's break from all work. Seriously dying for peace and rest. Im rather appalled now. No apparent reason to it, and Im feeling really hopeless D: