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if you'd listen CYNTHIA, 03/03. 6/1'05, 2E4'07, 4E3'09, Orchestra, Digital Art, 13th Prefectorial Board. Motivation is: percussion(WDMF), ManUtd, ever-smiling pooh, fellow excos, fellow seeoh mates, clique, family, hktk. Happiness is: Percussion Grade5, End of O's, WMC. Despite the distance apart, it keeps leaving me needing you. |
you can fake it off,
Ive finallaye gotten the drive to workharder for my subjects:D And thats great news isnt it? :D Laughed like :O this evening and almost choked on the pearls. And another good news, Im learning drumset from my jie's friend soon!! I am so excited for the lessons to come:D New skin, gonna get Mj's skin done by tmr:D So, goodnight:D a thinkable question,
It was raining rather heavily when Im on my way back. And for an extremely lazy person like me, Im walking in the rain simply because I dont have an umbrella with me then. So, I took the usual route beside Swisscott. And guess what happened when I reached the last traffic light? The guy who was always walking infront of me approached me offered to share the umbrella with me. The first look he saw me, pathetically drenched, he offered his help. My first reaction was "its okay, thankyou." Though so, I was still really thankful for his offer and somehow, touched because theres still kind people like him around. What Im trying to say is, how many would offer help without any hesitations like how that person did? I think this is a question thats worth pondering.Being someone who is always emotional, very often I'll feel something more in me than anybody else. So just take the above paragraph as some random typings with no meanings if you do think Im crap. :P Chinese was a such a great dissapointment. But nevermind, all is gonna be well great and just fine after much of chionging of hao ci hao ju! I hope sixoneys remember about xu lao shi's hao ci hao ju-s :D I was rather bothered today. During and after lessons D: And, no idea why, but I just wish that you'll somehow notice the change in me today, sadly you did not. Well, its okay because we're no longer who we were in the past, and being realistic persons we've finally see the need to move on right? (I hope I did.) Ah, I just feel, I need to control my emotions a little. Stop crying as and when I feel like to, Im no longer in primaryschool or anything, its really time to grow up and learn how to hold back tears at the right time. But I just feel so, uneasy now. In a sense, an indescribable feeling in me. And, Im worried for tomorrow's practice): I am off. Goodbye. spell doomed : C-Y-N-T-H-I-A.
Finally a day to relax a little more when commons all over:DBut guess what? Results just suck. And when I say they suck, they're really worser than horrible. Especially for physics D: But no worries, Im gonna chiong to get the assessment book tmr / sat. :P Just hoping hard, that chinese is gonna be well, because I hate doing lian bi!!!! Today's CME was really funnaye, laughed for almost the entire lesson man! And yet I forgotten what the hell I laughed about. :P And Debate was really interesting (x89759846) today! With the impromtu debate we had among ourselves. And the really :O motion which Jared is most interested in, :P I think I did super badly as the first oppo. Needs more improvement and also, slow down and think better! Ytd's REACH talk was a little dry but overall was okay. :D Great experience. OH, and Sg is going to host the youth olympics in 2010!!!!!! I have no idea why, Im neither a athlete myself or someone whos good in sports, but Im so happy:D I think, too much of SS / CME, but anyway, I just feel proud as a singaporean :D And Co just rock today can! With the hottest news in co of _, _ :P Feeling rather guilty of what Ive done, Im gonna stop talking about it okay:D Haha, but I think it'll still be one of the hot topics that percussion and woodwind will talk about during combine man :P Or at least between Natalie and I :P Alright, Im just joking yeah:D And I think what joshua did at the bus stop was :O, it was so obvious okay!!! I mean all in all, I just enjoys Co so much even though Im always getting scoldings. (: Just read up on the article of the Australian drug tracfficker since it was brought up during debate today. To me, its a pity, and he is really a nice and caring brother! Well, time to go, goodbye(: still living my days putting smiles on your face?
STRESSED?I have no idea whether I am. Just need to let my brain rest for some time. Feeling so upset with what everybodys been telling me. And apparently, Ive lose all my faith in this job. But sadly theres nothing I can do to make myself feel better. True uh? I just feel all tired to continue with this. Oh, and I doubt she knows about the yellow ribbon project, and all about anti-discrimination? Its okay, its all redundant now. I need someone to talk to now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )': You used to be the one I'll look for in the crowd, but now, its all different. To shine is better than to reflect?
Ahaha, look whos here again :PCommons here and Im still sitting infront of the computer! :O, extremely daring uh. Emaths and El tomorrow. And I bet after tomorrow's paper life will be a struggle. Because Ive hardly touch on any other subjects other than Emaths geog and chem. Goner~ D: Went over to cc's study room. It was actually very eerie when you're all alone in the room you see. But it was okay because Ive gotten ernaye there to accompany me through my study:D Heehee:B And that room looks like Mus'art 's practice room!! :D Well well, its monday tomorrow so I gotta sleep early tonight :D And I missed Manutd vs Arsenal match last night!!!! its 4-0 :O, and I missed it. D: I miss my crumpler, so Ive decided that I'll carry crumpler to school tomorrow:D And its Jessie's birthday on Wednesday!!!!!!!!!!! Yay~ And that means, Im turing 15 soon too:D And that means, Kaixin is turing 15 soon too:D And that means, Fangting is turning 15 soon too:D And that means, Priscilla is turning 15 soon too:D And that means, Yanling is turning 15 soon too:D And that all proves that time flies :O [Totallaye randommmmmmmm~] Anyway, I played mahjong for the very first time today, and guess what? As usual, I kept losing D: Oh yeah, and I gotta thank Clique for the more-than-fabulous Vday gift!!!! Im in love with it:D And I just cant bear to pull them out and eat, so Im waiting for it to rot:P But still you girls rock! :D Ive finallaye uploaded the photos that we took on the last day of the NE course. Get it from me if you want yup:D Most of them look very funny with some spastic people in it. SOME SPASTIC PEOPLE LIKE *AHEM* :P I cant blame you for all those mean things you've done to me, because those are the things that got me here. So I shouldnt regret loving you, right?Alrightaye, its time to sleep :D Goodbye and goodnight!:D the reason that Im in spects, D:
The debate had just ended and thanks to Beatrice's parents for sending me and the others back! Alright, so WE WON, and congrats to Beatrice for winning the best speaker this time round:D Shreya and Jiazhe did extremely well too! So, conclusion, we deserve to win! And the oppo team's case was *speechless*. :PFirst time seeing the speakers being so tensed up, and everything. But theire speeches went rather smoothly. Nicholas and Mrs Phua came, and I think the whole team just rock:B I just feel good seeing everybody giving each other moral support so much:D Alright, so for the past few days Ive been busy with researches and things like homework and stuff. Apart from the stress that Im having as a student, my emotions went like a family roller coaster this week. D: Gladys and Reena took over Zhiting and I for gate duty, so theres no need for zt and I to be there anymore D: Very saddening, but theres always time when we have to leave the job. D: However, thinking about it, been on gate duty since last year I supposed, having to give ourselves a new environment (being in the quadragle with the others) its hard to adapt. Yes, very hard to adapt to it I could say, just imagine yourself doing the same thing everyday for at least 365days, you'll feel how we felt too. Ah, but we must always learn to give others a chance too :D So, we're moving on!:D But Im pretty sure, Zt and I will definately miss gate duty ): Before I go, just some junk that Ive been having in mind since this morning :P, but I thought Im making a point. And to those out there who're thinking that we cant make it, Im telling you, We'll just do it to prove you wrong. Being in the 7subjects combination isnt what we, the 7sub people ask for, am I right? We tried (okay, at least for me, I tried hard) our best to get into the better class, but do you know theres only 80 people who were able to get their 8subjects combination? And, being in the top 40, I certainly wish and pray for myself to get into the 8subj instead of the 7subj. Whatever, and anyway, who on earth told you that 7subj people cant cope with their studies well. Im sorry to say, you're so wrong and I am so gonna prove you wrong. Not only me, the others too. Its totally atrocious to know that even people like * look at us this way. I am so disappointed with the school, and many others whom I once thought gave me so much support for me to make it so far. And, *, stop giving me/us THAT KIND of facial expression which totally :/. I know Im being mean here, but fyi, Ive put up with this since sec1, and Ive had enough! D: Im in an extremely bad mood now, so goodbye and nights people. Once again, CONGRATS TO THE TEAM! WE ROCK :D &HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHREYA:DDDDDDDD helplessly, I think of you.
This year's CNY is all about gathering at ahma's house having steamboat together, drinking 30% of carlsberg + 70% of sprite, keeping myself awake till 2am in the morning just to help mum and jie deal with their nails, waking up at I-forgotten-what-time and going over to ahma's house for breakfast, stoning, eating and receiving angbaos, shaking hands and saying happy new year for countless times, having cramps and almost fainted, knowing more about graphic design and NAFA, sitting infront of the teevee commenting about the ridiculous replay procedure, sleeping at 10pm, being the first to reach and leave ahma's house, seeing idiots and getting blamed by idiots for breaking the bottle of oh-so-great-chilli, going over to almost all of my aunts' house, repeating the procedure of stoning and eating, laughing over the carrying of water bottles, going to the park for a long chat with my cousins, laughing over L*L, opening our "buddha stall" - each going at 10bucks, 4 young adults / adults playing at the playground with our niece and nephew, laughing over the swollen pineapple tarts, quitting the game after losing 2bucks in less than 10minutes, going home late and still managing to watch kungfu soccer, being able to sleep early :DThis year's CNY is a little more of everything! Which actually made me rather happy, because, I've grown closer with some of my cousins, theres no stress from school, Im richer now!, and also Ive gotten the chance to drink some beer :D Ah, and second day's morning was really ruined by some people. Its just about a bottle of chilli sauce that my mum had accidentally broken, and people was totally kicking a big fuss over it. If you really thinks that that bottle of chilli sauce is that precious, I dont mind to pay for a dozen of them for you man. And I'll make sure you eat them all up since you like them so much. And please, its CNY and you're doing things like that, have some sense man! Glad enough we left early. Well, at last its the third day of CNY, and Ive now done with 1/2 the wksheet of chem:D Sense of accomplishment! And Im going to watch Ahlong Pte Ltd later!:D Going over to Yuanny's place tomorrow afternoon before going over to the restaurant for dinner with my relatives :D So, tomorrow is gonna be a happening dayyyyyyyyyyyy:D Yay! But, one thing to worry, Ive gotten researches to do!! So, goodbye and Happy CNY:DDDD :D, this is all I can give for the time being.
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL:DDDDDDDDBeen rather busy lately. So didnt really have any spare time to log in to blogger to blog. But no worries, I'll always be here whenever I have the time to spare yeah:D CNY is as boring as everrrrrrrr. But, things are getting better as time goes by. The later part of my day got more interesting, for that, my day wasnt wasted:D And my nephew is an extreme stoner I think. Really qiang! But all in all, my nieces and nephews are very adorableeeeeee:D One of them gave me a hug before she left :DDDDDDDDDD Ah, my brother is working tomorrow, which means we have to take public transport whereever we go tomorrowD: Spoiling, and that makes me more reluctant to go out tomorrow!! But I hope my cousins and I would go for a movie tomorrow:D Ah, I am still trying to figure out the way to play mahjongD: Doing research for debate is especially tedious for a slow reader like me. D: But trying real hard to get things done, no worries people, we shall trash our opponents alright!! :D Go BB DEBATE TEAM:DDDDDDD Well, its almost time, so goodbye and goodnight people:D Gong xi fa cai, xin nian jing bu!! 030206.
Nothing should be recalled on this day, no one should be appearing in my head on this day. Its no longer a special day, no longer a day I'll look forward to, because its pretty obvious its all over. I think you must be relived that Im finally moving on? No matter how hurtful Im feeling now, I really want to let it end now, inasmuch as Im a selfish person who hates being in such agony everyday. And please know, what I told you on Sat night would be the last time. And from now on, you and I will never be put together. Thank you for being there in the past. I really miss the times when, we understand one another so much, we loved each other so much, we had our heart to heart talk on the phone, we really cared for each other, I helps you to complete you chinese jianbaos, I gets to scribble on your maths paper, I gets to doodle on your calculator, we call each other names, I spend my nights writing that book for you, you were so touched after reading it and smsed me telling me you love me. Thank you for all the times, and letting me feel and understand whats love. Now that theres someone else who is also willing to sacrifice, to love, to care, for you, Im sure you'll live happily. All I could say, is take care, and nothing else. I dont really care who would be the one telling you what Ive blogged here anymore, because Ive totally understood who I am to you. And the answer Ive got is nothing. Smile? I will (:
I know I might sound really cheenaaaaaaaaaa, but! I really gotta introduce this song performed by Hkco to all of you man! The front part might sound a little weird, but overall is awesome! Love the effect that the snare drum made at the later part of the song, :D Ah, my passion for co is back again! Perhaps, getting scolded by Shenls did not really burnt all my passion away right? I LOVE CO :D I hope we can play this song? Really rocks, the snare drum part rocks okay!!!!! :D And Ive been missing co practices due to the course, but no worries, it had ended, and Im going to be back in practices:D But, something else will be taking up my time again. I hope all will go well bah(:Anyway, I just realised, Commons is just 2weeks away! And Im still here, spending 2hours of my night watching Co performances on youtube. Im going to plan my study schedule by tonight :D Many had been telling me that studies should take priority. No worries, Im now going to spend time doing all my revision and stuffs. And, I wont let my studies suffer alright:D Dont worry people! Although Im dying to drop chi and all, I'll still persist to achieve the best results alright! And, another commitment would in turn lead to lesser time to study, but I'll do my best alright:D And for the past one week, the mra neighbourhood has been talking about hcl and all. And guess what, Im late on Monday and I have no time to serve detention at all!!!! D: I am died D: &Honestly speaking, I am feeling rather dettached from the class manzxzxz D: Thats really sad alright. Now, pictures from the course:D Be prepared to laugh, I have no idea why, I love the bunch of people there very much!! Another:D Janice and Carmen!The reason I added this photo is because of Carmen's caption to it, "Abel act cute" :P An overall group photo!! For the overall group photo, the first moment I saw the white-tissue-paper-like object in Eswara's mouth, my first reaction was "why is Eswara eating tissue?". And, shifting my vision to the right, I saw the ever-so-spastic Kelway's face. I cant help but laugh out loud:P Being able to go through the course with them is really a great opportunity for bonding. And, they're seriously a fun and loveable bunch of people to work with! :D Great time with all of you, thank you for everything :D Its time, goodbye and night(: the invisible line thats separating us,
And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere, all of a sudden this overwhelming sadness rushes over me and i get discouraged and I get upset and I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt and once again I become numb to the world. why do I feel that everything I say and do make you upset? Im not here to pull you down, but lift you up. I wish to be the reason for you to smile just like you being the reason for my smiles. But it all seemed different now. The distance between is indescribable, and I dont wish to talk about it anymore. Because I know deeply in my heart, nothing more can be done to pull us closer. The only way is for a time machine to bring us back to the past. I really wish, what Ive been feeling, seeing and hearing all this while wasnt true. Its now my turn to let you know, I cant live without you.
another 365 days, please?
Been long since Ive given myself a break from work to blog. So today, Im just going to do the posting before I carry on with chinese D:Hope all have been doing well yeap:D Anyway, the course had ended. Todays the very last day, and also the evaluation day:D The presentation went pretty well, and of course Im very very proud of my team:DDDDDD You guys rock yo! Ah, Chem = alienic to me. I dont really understand anything during lessons. And I really hate it when teachers compare us with other classes. I know we're slow, but Im sure we're all trying to clear our doubts and not being complacent. Chinese isnt any better. 4days of chinese lesson this week. And yes, Im already dying D: Can I just drop chinese? She kept threatening to send us to CL-B. And lian bi lian zi everyday, and presentations to do till midnight weekly. I AM GOING CRAZYYYYYYY D: Can I just drop chinese? Its my strongest subject yet, I am so tired of doing it. D: Well, anyway, last Sat night's concert was great. Riverdance was the best song indeed. I love it:D CNY is round the corner, and Im not really mentally prepared for the long stoning hours yet. I hope all is gonna be over soon! Schools been really stressful these days. I hope I'll get used to it soon man D: &Finally made up my mind to join the team :D Rawrzxzx, I am so upset over some things. Disappointments and everything. With myself, and the r/s that people and I are holding onto. Now its rather obvious that Im the only one holding on to nothing. And fyi, like an idiot. ): Ah, in conclusion, I think shes the line that has been separating the both of us. ): 2more days, I hope it'll all be fine and well. Ily boy ): Goodbye, and goodnight. |
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all the little things
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